|The blossom of the pohutakawa trees which grow along the length of the beach.|
Concussion can be very isolating. Others cannot see the hidden struggles that you have with some of the most basic activities of life for example; answering the phone; having a short 'how do you do' type conversation with someone who arrives unexpectedly; driving the car; doing the supermarket shopping. It feels lonely because most people find it hard to understand what you are experiencing. I think I only realised how lonely I had felt during my recovery period when I joined a Facebook Page for concussion affected people and felt the camaraderie of fellow sufferers.
|My herbs and tomato plants in my kitchen|
garden just outside the back door.
|Looking out the kitchen door.|
Baking was a challenge at first. I couldn't hold anything in my head long enough to act on it so following a recipe was hard work. I would read an ingredient, go to weigh it out and by that time I would have forgotten what the recipe said. I had some disastrous results which were totally inedible and ended up in the bin but this didn't seem to upset me too much so I just kept trying week after week until my brain was able to cope. I made some super scrummy cakes and started to look like a pudding myself but I'll save that story for another blog! Putting on weight is apparently normal when you are dealing with concussion symptoms.
|The front deck of my house.|
So, I feel very fortunate to have a lovely place to come home to, near the beach, in the forest, surrounded by caring neighbours and beautiful birds in the trees. I have learned the value of being quiet and calm in the midst of a life turned upside down by concussion. I have also learned how the brain does all it can to heal itself. The main thing I have done to get better is I have followed the advice of my specialists and balanced rest and activity so that I haven't overdone it.
I feel very thankful for my recovery. Everyone's experience of concussion is different and I know I have been lucky to have wonderful expert care and to have come this far in my journey.